I was driving home from a long day in the lab yesterday and, probably because I didn't have time to run, was consumed with negative thoughts all the way up the canyon. I felt a sticky, heavy weight that hung between my ribs and dulled up my solar plexus. I couldn't get rid of this certain cycle of anxiety about something in my life i've been having trouble with. This happens to all of us, more often than we like to admit, these toxic events, behaviors, places, foods, relationships, that help to spin an unhealthy thought pattern and create a spiral of toxicity in our lives. On this particular evening I just couldn't seem to shake it....
and then I turned the corner at dusk and saw the thick, telling tail of a fox. Bushy like a dream. I got closer and saw her white padded paws and the slender curve of achilles. It glanced at me and then quickly tore off, and I had to laugh. Vulpini, the animal that is fleeting. Reminding us of the impermanence of the present, triggers our adaptability for change. Urged me, upon seeing her, to be more cunning in the battle against my restrictions- to slip briskly away from the negative thoughts that do not belong to me, to swiftly decide against a toxic pattern and change due course.
so thank you, you fantastic mrs. fox.....
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